I've been with my boyfriend for 8 months now and we've been having sex for about four months. I'm on the shot so I'm not worried, that's not the problem.
The problem is that afterward I feel kind of bad or ashamed of what I just did. I don't know where it's coming from. When I told my mom she was pretty upset because I thought I might be pregnant too, so she was totally upset, but I wasn't. My best friend was also pretty angry and disappointed.
I don't know, I always think about how I should have waited, how much my mom wanted me to wait and I feel ashamed. It's like their voices come in my head and ask me to stop.
I really love my boyfriend and I don't want to feel this way because I know how much he loves me and he tells me that we won't have sex if I don't want to. I mean it's not that I don't enjoy it.
I try to make it more positive by telling myself that it is only natural and that I'm lucky enough to have a boyfriend that loves and respects me, but I can't seem to take the guilt off of me.
I want to be able to enjoy it emotionally, I hate this feeling, can you please help me?